A Blog is Born

Well, it's come to this. A blog. I have been documenting my grief journey through several outlets and I haven't found what I like best. Some days it's Facebook, some days it's Instagram, and some days it's Instagram My Stories.

I want the freedom to express myself in whatever way feels good at the moment and not get confused as to where I did it!  I am hoping to bring it all together here.  As I prepare to speak for a memorial tribute to families of people who passed away last year, I am searching old posts and videoed confessionals and it is just too spread out.

I think there are a few reasons I hesitated to start a blog as a vehicle for my expression, (I feel like I want to use a semi colon here, but really have no idea how to use one!) 

1) I am terrible with my use of comma's and run on sentences - and other grammar things and I will try my best but I am not going to stress over it because it's the content that's important to me.

2) If I put my stuff on Facebook and Instagram I can somewhat force feed an audience - with a blog I feel like people have to COME to me, and I just don't know if I can take the rejection ;) 

3) It feels like blogs are losing popularity and are a dime a dozen, I don't like thinking that when I pour out my heart it will get lost in a sea of bloggers.

4) I worry about "haters" and privacy. I want to reach people outside my circle in the hopes of helping others through my journey, but I tend to take constructive criticism too personally...

5) I like things in chronological order, in the past this has bothered me with my family history blogs.   Plus I am considering moving my documented journey from other social media venues to this forum and I'm not sure how that will translate given this issue.

6) When given the chance, I RAMBLE. But I feel like when I start typing my thoughts and feelings it's as close to stream of consciousness as possible and some insightful stuff gets out there. Insightful to me anyway.

7) While I like cheerleaders and encouragement I dislike the possible misconception that I am "fishing" for compliments, or advice. This is my journey, it is what it is.

So, what am I trying to say?  This is my attempt, it may or may not satisfy my path of healing through expression, and as a fair warning, it will most likely be unedited.